Fwd: Happiness

When we were together, I was happy & you weren't.
Now that we are apart, I'm miserable & I pray that you are finally happy. Are you?

Fwd: Everyday

I never sent this one. He would just roll his eyes.

Everyday
I think of you.
In the shower. Lying in bed. Watching tv. When I get a text message-i hope it's from you.
You have control.
You've always had control over me.
I hope your happy. I hope your happy with your decision. I still don't understand what went wrong. What I did wrong to lose you.
I got sick today. My parents are in town & I took them to ellicott city. I remember the spot where you first grabbed my hand. . . & today I got so sick to my stomach thinking of that moment & how we'll never hold hands again. How we'll never do anything ever again with each other. . .
Sometimes I just want to say the meanest things to you so you'll feel just as bad as I do. Sometimes I just want to hurt you so you'll still feel the pain like I do.
I thought I would be over you by now. I hate myself because I'm not. I hate myself for not being good enough. I hate myself for ever thinking there stood a chance for us to last.
Sometimes I just want to pound my fists into your chest & cry until I pass out from exhaustion.

Wow not even a bday fresh dream! Sorry. . . Just have so many mixed feelings when I think of u. & it was thoughtful of u 2 send the card but it seemed like it was 1 of ur generic cards. Guess I owe u an email 2 explain. . .
Thinking back 2 a year ago when you first told me about going to maggianos for my bday & now realizing it will never happen.

Fresh full moon dreams. . . .

Hope u & s-gal had a nice day. fresh spring like dreams. . . .

Thanks 4 the call! glad u had a chance 2 hang out with ur friends. drive safe! fresh coming home dreams. . . .

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