Friday, February 27, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Fwd: I may be smart but I sure am stupid
I don't know why I have this feeling to write this now.
or why I'm even telling you this but I guess since I'm hurting you should know why.
i feel used.
i feel stupid.
I remember that drive to Roots one Sunday where you told me your history with Tammy.
and i believed you.
I believed you when you said you were over her.
and I felt sorry. I felt sorry for that other woman. the woman that you were dating when Tammy came back into your life and you had to break up with this woman.
I should have paid attention to my gutt feelings.
I knew one day I would be just like that other woman. You never even gave her a name. Will I be the same?
I knew you missed Tammy and the life you had with her when everything was still the same.
the same in the house. Every time I came over there she was.
Tammy was my only competition.
Her things still in the bathroom.
Her teddy bears in the bedroom and kitchen.
I tried to joke about the items in the bathroom so you would understand how I felt.
you moved them.
but just to the hall closet.
I know you tried with us. But no one will ever be able to fill her shoes.
DG asked you how life was like with another woman in the house.
I remember you told him it was no big deal. there had been other woman.
I always wanted to ask you who they were and what happened to them.
I knew deep down you weren't over her.
If you were you would have gotten rid of her stuff.
i asked you on Saturday if she was trying to move back in and have you raise the baby with her.
you wouldn't even say the word "no".
your only response to anything I asked was, "we need to refinance".
you won't ever say "no" to the idea of tammy moving back in because you still have hope.
that's why you could never call me your girlfriend.
on saturday you mentioned that she called you on your way home from my place that last time.
i thought she didn't have your cell number. guess you gave it to her so you can screen her calls.
you say I'm good enough but that I have learned is a bunch of bull crap.
i am good enough but just not good enough for you.
because I'm no tammy.
oh yeah and don't tell me you can't do the relationship thing. cause I know you can.
you just can't do it with me.
so i still feel stupid.
I feel stupid for having hope,
letting myself open up,
and letting myself fall flat on my face.
because I'm still questioning if, all the fun, laughter, memories and love, was worth it.
or why I'm even telling you this but I guess since I'm hurting you should know why.
i feel used.
i feel stupid.
I remember that drive to Roots one Sunday where you told me your history with Tammy.
and i believed you.
I believed you when you said you were over her.
and I felt sorry. I felt sorry for that other woman. the woman that you were dating when Tammy came back into your life and you had to break up with this woman.
I should have paid attention to my gutt feelings.
I knew one day I would be just like that other woman. You never even gave her a name. Will I be the same?
I knew you missed Tammy and the life you had with her when everything was still the same.
the same in the house. Every time I came over there she was.
Tammy was my only competition.
Her things still in the bathroom.
Her teddy bears in the bedroom and kitchen.
I tried to joke about the items in the bathroom so you would understand how I felt.
you moved them.
but just to the hall closet.
I know you tried with us. But no one will ever be able to fill her shoes.
DG asked you how life was like with another woman in the house.
I remember you told him it was no big deal. there had been other woman.
I always wanted to ask you who they were and what happened to them.
I knew deep down you weren't over her.
If you were you would have gotten rid of her stuff.
i asked you on Saturday if she was trying to move back in and have you raise the baby with her.
you wouldn't even say the word "no".
your only response to anything I asked was, "we need to refinance".
you won't ever say "no" to the idea of tammy moving back in because you still have hope.
that's why you could never call me your girlfriend.
on saturday you mentioned that she called you on your way home from my place that last time.
i thought she didn't have your cell number. guess you gave it to her so you can screen her calls.
you say I'm good enough but that I have learned is a bunch of bull crap.
i am good enough but just not good enough for you.
because I'm no tammy.
oh yeah and don't tell me you can't do the relationship thing. cause I know you can.
you just can't do it with me.
so i still feel stupid.
I feel stupid for having hope,
letting myself open up,
and letting myself fall flat on my face.
because I'm still questioning if, all the fun, laughter, memories and love, was worth it.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
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